Depression. My theory for a while has been to sit back and watch it, let it pass, because I know that eventually, it will. But some days are harder than others, and today was one of those days. Maybe it’s because a hot boy took a pot shot at my eating habits this week. Or maybe it’s the weather. All I know is I was so down this morning that I might have seen a shrink … except that trouble at work means my medical cover was cancelled.
It’s the holiday season and there’s lots of people talking about gratitude and counting blessings, so I sat on my bed in the dark and counted all the lovely things that have happened to me this year. It didn’t really help. I glanced over at my baby and hugged her in her sleep. She instinctively reached over and hugged me back, and that did help. It wasn’t enough to shake all the blues away though.
When I finally dragged myself out of bed, my instinct was to dress in black and skip breakfast, since I was late for work already. Then I figured I should try to do something – anything – to lift my mood a bit. So instead of wearing my funky black attire, I put on a sparkly yellow hoodie and a matching yellow bow.
In the ad world, wearing bright colours can lift a person’s mood. We say that all the time. It’s how we pick our logos. In the real world, I’ve been wearing yellow sequins every hour of today, but I don’t feel any less blue. I’m glad I did something though. I’m glad I took a step beyond waiting for the darkness to pass, because the practical way isn’t always the right way. Also, I found a video that made me smile. It was posted by a former boss to – you know – show us how to advertise Christmas. Muhahaha. Still, it made me smile, so that’s something. So here’s to chasing the dark days away and Early Merry Blue Christmas everybody.